Work has sucked my soul away from me these last 6 weeks or so. I work in a very small office with a total of 7 women, we all work various shifts. They disgust me, like seriously disgust me. I would find another job but not the best time for that and if I can out last the 1 or 2 hard core bitches it will be much better for my career in the long run. I see this and know this and I am doing my best, but seriously I have never been so exhausted in all my life. I work with Mentally ill so I should recognize some of the lying and manipulative behavior, but it kind of snuck up on me.
I have been a little sad too. I desperately want another baby. And I feel like my window is closing for that. I am not even 30 yet but I still would rather just do it sooner then later. My period was late this month like 12 days late. I was holding out so much hope, but nothing.
I remember the moment after I had my daughter, they were still cleaning her up, my body had this incredible sense of satisfaction. It was like I my body knew its purpose and felt revitalized by labor. It is so hard to describe, it is just an intense feeling of " ah yes now I get it" and and better then orgasm release. It was freaking the most fabulous feeling in the world, 2 years later and can bring my mind right to it. Right after I delivered her, I was up and about. Like one of those women who squats in the field and keeps on going. (well maybe not exactly the same but u get the point)
Anyhow I am having a fun filled weekend at home, party for my daughter and family, new hot tub installed, giant inflatable slide in the back yard. i just want to have fun adn relax. I hope to get back on here soon with some pics I would check back in about 2 weeks.
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