I received some feedback on the blog today, which right on time, because I have been feeling like i should perhaps do some things worth writing about. So I have been in hiding for a long time, or so it seems to me. I have only been seeing D. Sadly enough when he came over the other night I could not even feel connected with him. Very Concerning. As I have gotten older, I have really gotten to understand that sex is better in a different way when you really care about the other person. The connection of someone can be good, and has been for awhile. I am kinda of rambling but bear with me here. He got here, and he looked good, but I was a little bothered that the baby was asleep and he was not able to visit with her, and then for the love of christ if he has to turn soccer on one more time... although I prefer soccer to WWE Events he makes me watch in between fucking. I said to a friend of mine the other day, he is like a fantasy of mine. Somedays it is hard to believe that he is real, and I really had his baby, and this is really my life The other night he was just a man to me... not this All Knowing God as I usually think him to be. Delusions are Fabulous sometimes. We started fucking and I was just disinterested at best. I guess I needed something more I dont know. Of course he had to fuck my ass. And he has been doing that for god at least 4 years now if not more, and he still will not listen to me when I say "Give me just a second" Seriously just give me one second to relax my body and I will be in the zone with you, and we can both cum while you fuck my ass. But no he just does everything at his speed. Frustrating!!! I started to feel more connected with him as we laid in bed watching a movie, what we do all the time now. I really feel like we are married sometimes, and i dont mean that in a good way.
Feels good to vent again. Feedback was asking me about age play... honestly I dont even truley know what that is. I have some positive responses to being treated like a little girl, but I have not had a lot of experience with that.
Send me some inspirational comments so I can post more.
