I have been feeling more and more bold and less and less submissive with each passing day. I feel like the further I move away from the influence of D the more and more free I feel. So when the guy I was talking to last year reached out to me again he was met with the feisty side of submissive girl. He texted me about he knows I am seeing someone else, and keep in mind I have not seen him in a year and in the last year he has not asked me out, called me, or even texted me anything meaningful. I thought he was nice enough and the sex was good but this year of not wanting sex he needed to bring something more the table to catch my attention.
Now let me say this first before I continue. Women learn how to react to men in a way that keeps them safe. And I have been very aware of my vulnerability when is comes to personal safety when dealing with men. I have met a lot of men in very desolate and unsafe situations and part of the way I have controlled those situations was to never assert myself in a way that would anger or more importantly make a man feel like he was not wanted. But with this guy being so far out of my life I felt safe to speak "freely" and I did.
I told him that "I am single. I will see and or have sex with anyone I want to whenever I want to" and then I added that it was obvious he was not interested in a relationship and that was cool I could keep him on the roster in case my sex drive picks back up. Well I hit a nerve with him. He responded with calling me a white trash slut and calling my kids fucked up for being mixed.
Now I was really surprised because I did not see this behavior coming. He did not seem like a racist asshole. What was more disturbing that this man has been in my house and I generally trusted him. How could I be so wrong? How did I not see this? Was there no red flags? Or do all men have this in them if I push the right buttons. And really this is why I have so little time for men. They are just assholes. I would never attack someone's kids. I am also not a racist and when people say shit to me that is hurtful I usually meet it with introspection and deep thought processes. And this is no different. I am still a little stunned as I would not say shit like that to people I dont like.
I need a kind person. A deep down kind soul with some self control, an island accent, a big dick, and enough money they can take care of themselves and who can have deep conversations when needed. I dont know if it is out there.
Even better he called me a slut... lol. Typical man. Women are always attempted to be diminished by attacking their sexuality and there body. Men call us sluts, bitches and fat and yet cant handle it when we dont want them.
